1 00:02:34,820 --> 00:02:35,719 Coffee, George? 2 00:02:35,720 --> 00:02:36,720 Mother of God. 3 00:02:50,920 --> 00:02:53,780 Hello. Can I help you? I'm here to see Dr. Tracy. 4 00:02:54,180 --> 00:02:55,300 Do you have an appointment? 5 00:02:55,660 --> 00:02:56,599 Yes, two. 6 00:02:56,600 --> 00:02:57,700 My name is Paul Garvin. 7 00:02:59,460 --> 00:03:01,900 Okay, the doctor will be back soon. Please have a seat. 8 00:03:02,120 --> 00:03:03,120 Thank you. 9 00:03:08,300 --> 00:03:09,300 Hello Paul. 10 00:03:09,800 --> 00:03:11,480 So, how are you doing, Julie? Big. 11 00:03:11,700 --> 00:03:12,700 How about coffee? 12 00:03:13,140 --> 00:03:14,140 No, thanks. 13 00:03:14,840 --> 00:03:15,900 How is the film going? 14 00:03:16,200 --> 00:03:17,200 Oh, just great. 15 00:03:17,480 --> 00:03:19,920 Good. The doctor will be back in a few minutes. minutes. 16 00:03:20,140 --> 00:03:21,540 If you want, you can wait in his office. 17 00:03:21,840 --> 00:03:22,840 Oh, thank you. 18 00:03:35,380 --> 00:03:36,900 Lucky you. Not bad. 19 00:03:37,600 --> 00:03:38,559 Do you think so? 20 00:03:38,560 --> 00:03:40,760 You too. I'm not blind, honey. 21 00:03:43,020 --> 00:03:44,600 I don't know what to do, Joyce. 22 00:03:45,360 --> 00:03:47,360 I know I shouldn't, but I'm dating Paul. 23 00:03:48,380 --> 00:03:49,480 I really like him. 24 00:03:49,920 --> 00:03:52,900 Whatever you do, don't let the doctor find out. 25 00:04:05,770 --> 00:04:07,890 Your meeting is waiting for two hours in your office, doctor. 26 00:04:08,270 --> 00:04:09,270 Am I late? 27 00:04:09,430 --> 00:04:10,429 He was early. 28 00:04:10,430 --> 00:04:11,430 Thank you. 29 00:04:13,250 --> 00:04:14,610 Any messages, Joyce? 30 00:04:15,010 --> 00:04:16,010 Not yet, doctor. 31 00:04:21,570 --> 00:04:22,570 Hello Paul. 32 00:04:27,450 --> 00:04:28,450 Fine. 33 00:04:31,930 --> 00:04:32,930 Here we are. 34 00:04:36,080 --> 00:04:37,200 How is the work going? 35 00:04:38,100 --> 00:04:39,100 Fine. 36 00:04:39,320 --> 00:04:41,340 In fact, I just started a new painting. 37 00:04:41,960 --> 00:04:43,200 Well, that's progress. 38 00:04:47,540 --> 00:04:49,100 Come on, Paul. What is it? 39 00:04:51,240 --> 00:04:52,240 Spit it out. 40 00:04:52,760 --> 00:04:54,220 More nightmares? 41 00:04:54,860 --> 00:04:55,860 Dummy? 42 00:04:59,220 --> 00:05:01,360 Yes. Tell me about it. 43 00:05:02,660 --> 00:05:05,460 Listen, Paul, I'm your doctor, not yours. confessor. 44 00:05:06,060 --> 00:05:10,060 As soon as you walk through this door, I I want you to throw away your guilt as if it were 45 00:05:10,060 --> 00:05:11,060 load of garbage. 46 00:05:11,500 --> 00:05:15,520 There's nothing you can't tell me. Trust me, I've probably heard it 47 00:05:16,640 --> 00:05:18,440 Why can't I stop myself? 48 00:05:19,360 --> 00:05:22,300 When I think it's getting better it starts again. 49 00:05:24,040 --> 00:05:29,920 What's wrong with me? All of us and me I mean we all have deep, dark secrets 50 00:05:29,920 --> 00:05:30,920 we're locking up. 51 00:05:31,560 --> 00:05:33,340 But they won't stay locked up. 52 00:05:33,760 --> 00:05:36,140 They escape wearing unusual masks. 53 00:05:36,460 --> 00:05:42,140 And this is our business, yours and mine, to find them, to find the keys that 54 00:05:42,140 --> 00:05:44,160 reveal these terrible secrets. 55 00:05:44,740 --> 00:05:47,520 They are there, but we need to find them them. 56 00:05:48,740 --> 00:05:49,740 Fine? 57 00:05:51,940 --> 00:05:52,940 Fine. 58 00:05:54,340 --> 00:05:58,180 Now back to that party masquerade 59 00:05:58,920 --> 00:06:02,780 You say this was the first time you dressed completely like a woman. 60 00:06:03,560 --> 00:06:04,560 Yes. 61 00:06:04,960 --> 00:06:06,040 How did you feel? 62 00:06:09,060 --> 00:06:10,100 I liked it. 63 00:06:11,340 --> 00:06:16,760 Well, not because of the dress, but, well, because I was... it seemed to me that 64 00:06:16,760 --> 00:06:19,780 looked at the world from a different perspective wonderful hiding place. 65 00:06:21,020 --> 00:06:22,500 Well, it's hard to explain. 66 00:06:23,360 --> 00:06:25,400 Come on then. Come on, Paul. Let it out. 67 00:06:25,960 --> 00:06:30,220 By crazy coincidence I saw this woman at a party. 68 00:06:31,520 --> 00:06:32,520 She was... 69 00:06:34,319 --> 00:06:36,160 older and dressed like a man. 70 00:06:38,580 --> 00:06:41,220 She seemed to know exactly where I was. V. 71 00:06:41,620 --> 00:06:44,600 She came up to me and never said anything word. 72 00:06:45,640 --> 00:06:51,020 He just took me by the hand and led me away this party. 73 00:06:54,360 --> 00:06:58,820 We went to my apartment, and for For the first time in my life I felt alive. 74 00:07:05,480 --> 00:07:12,200 My nerves seemed to be filled with energy to flare up. it was as if some magical force had taken over 75 00:07:12,200 --> 00:07:15,780 over my body and was about to explode between my legs 76 00:07:15,780 --> 00:07:31,060 I 77 00:07:31,060 --> 00:07:33,420 Always afraid of women 78 00:07:34,670 --> 00:07:39,370 The terrible specter of sexual failure clung to me with dead fingers. 79 00:07:40,190 --> 00:07:46,770 But Lisa’s wonderful dedication, her natural, joyful appetite for love, 80 00:07:46,950 --> 00:07:53,870 it hurts her to touch and be touched, her Look how she moved 81 00:07:54,190 --> 00:08:00,130 its whole essence is organized for the act of love took my passion beyond my limits 82 00:08:00,130 --> 00:08:02,330 fear, beyond my consciousness. 83 00:08:03,440 --> 00:08:04,620 And I answered. 84 00:08:05,680 --> 00:08:07,440 God, how I reacted. 85 00:09:29,660 --> 00:09:30,940 Oh, Paul. 86 00:09:31,620 --> 00:09:36,680 My God. 87 00:11:05,770 --> 00:11:06,770 I loved her. 88 00:11:07,630 --> 00:11:09,150 I was hers. 89 00:11:09,970 --> 00:11:11,130 I was obsessed. 90 00:11:13,950 --> 00:11:17,670 And this was the first time you ever made love to a woman? 91 00:11:18,030 --> 00:11:21,490 Yes. And she's the only woman I have ever loved. 92 00:11:22,590 --> 00:11:24,350 And when was the last time you saw her? 93 00:11:24,750 --> 00:11:25,750 Three years ago. 94 00:11:27,750 --> 00:11:28,750 She died. 95 00:11:31,030 --> 00:11:32,030 Car accident. 96 00:11:33,870 --> 00:11:35,150 And since then? 97 00:11:37,250 --> 00:11:38,410 Nobody, really. 98 00:11:39,870 --> 00:11:40,870 Well, I tried it. 99 00:11:43,210 --> 00:11:44,210 I tried it. 100 00:11:44,930 --> 00:11:45,930 Okay, Paul. 101 00:11:46,730 --> 00:11:48,490 We'll take it from here on Friday. 102 00:11:49,250 --> 00:11:50,250 At the same time. 103 00:11:50,850 --> 00:11:51,850 At the same time. 104 00:11:58,110 --> 00:12:00,310 Goodbye. Still up for the evening? 105 00:12:00,870 --> 00:12:01,870 Oh, of course. 106 00:12:02,640 --> 00:12:03,740 I'll pick you up after work. 107 00:12:04,100 --> 00:12:05,100 Remember the address. 108 00:12:05,500 --> 00:12:06,500 How could I forget? 109 00:12:06,680 --> 00:12:07,680 See you later. 110 00:12:11,880 --> 00:12:14,220 You're walking on eggshells, honey. 111 00:12:19,980 --> 00:12:21,760 Good afternoon, Dr. Tracy's office. 112 00:12:22,140 --> 00:12:23,160 Well, how about it, baby? 113 00:12:23,580 --> 00:12:25,100 Do you mind after today's performance? 114 00:12:25,600 --> 00:12:28,540 Not tonight. Sorry, Andy. I thought we everything was ready. 115 00:12:29,760 --> 00:12:30,840 I can't talk now. 116 00:12:31,200 --> 00:12:32,200 Call me tonight. 117 00:12:32,490 --> 00:12:34,210 Is that how you talk to a star? 118 00:12:35,010 --> 00:12:36,010 Tonight. 119 00:12:36,210 --> 00:12:37,450 I'll talk to you tonight. 120 00:12:40,650 --> 00:12:42,790 Hey Andy, come here. 121 00:12:44,830 --> 00:12:46,790 Hey Andy, get your ass over here. 122 00:12:53,370 --> 00:12:53,850 This 123 00:12:53,850 --> 00:13:00,870 was 124 00:13:00,870 --> 00:13:01,870 Julie, isn't it? 125 00:13:04,140 --> 00:13:06,020 She makes you stand on your head. 126 00:13:08,660 --> 00:13:09,660 Back off. 127 00:13:12,180 --> 00:13:13,420 Don't be mad, honey. 128 00:13:14,180 --> 00:13:16,140 I don't care who you fuck. 129 00:13:16,660 --> 00:13:18,640 Until I get mine. 130 00:13:22,900 --> 00:13:25,840 Hey I thought this would be four. 131 00:13:28,160 --> 00:13:29,920 There is a lot of food here. 132 00:15:43,920 --> 00:15:45,360 Are you already thinking about me, pussy? 133 00:15:46,580 --> 00:15:51,020 I'd rather it be there than when you friend Yulia leaves hers. 134 00:15:52,280 --> 00:15:53,520 So what is this supposed to mean? 135 00:15:53,860 --> 00:15:56,180 That means that weirdo Paul Howard. 136 00:15:56,920 --> 00:15:58,880 She had been watching this bastard for several weeks. 137 00:15:59,320 --> 00:16:00,320 Isn't that right, Jack? 138 00:16:00,420 --> 00:16:01,420 This is a rumor. 139 00:16:01,660 --> 00:16:03,480 Anyway, don't drag me into this, okay? 140 00:16:03,760 --> 00:16:06,200 You know I think I'll make them fuck movies have softened your brain. 141 00:17:45,930 --> 00:17:46,930 Oh. 142 00:18:47,150 --> 00:18:48,230 Mm-hmm. 143 00:23:32,060 --> 00:23:33,840 I loved being with Paul. 144 00:23:34,060 --> 00:23:36,420 He was so much fun and so easy to be with. 145 00:23:36,760 --> 00:23:40,760 We always seemed to laugh at stupid things. things or nothing at all. 146 00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:42,500 I liked his face. 147 00:23:42,900 --> 00:23:46,220 Tender brown eyes surrounding and warmed my heart. 148 00:23:46,820 --> 00:23:49,680 The teasing half-smile was never unkind 149 00:23:50,600 --> 00:23:53,720 For me he was the most beautiful man I have ever known ever met. 150 00:23:54,180 --> 00:23:55,760 And yet there was something. 151 00:23:56,360 --> 00:23:59,280 He was too gentle, too passive. 152 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:04,620 What I wanted most now was for him to take me to love me hard, 153 00:24:04,760 --> 00:24:07,900 strongly. I wanted to drown in it passion. 154 00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:11,600 But every time I approached, he moved away. 155 00:24:13,160 --> 00:24:14,920 The pain was too much. 156 00:24:15,340 --> 00:24:18,140 I prayed so hard for tonight to be different. 157 00:24:36,270 --> 00:24:39,450 Every time I turn to him, the door closes. 158 00:24:40,870 --> 00:24:42,190 I don't understand. 159 00:24:44,010 --> 00:24:47,870 I'm so hurt and upset. 160 00:25:00,270 --> 00:25:01,290 Hello Andy. 161 00:25:02,430 --> 00:25:03,730 Where are you? 162 00:25:12,390 --> 00:25:14,810 Fine. Come here. 163 00:25:42,860 --> 00:25:43,860 Is Julie eating? 164 00:25:45,420 --> 00:25:47,820 Listen, I'm going to make myself drink. Would you like one? 165 00:25:48,560 --> 00:25:50,240 Thank you. I already have one. 166 00:25:50,680 --> 00:25:51,680 Everything is fine. 167 00:26:42,510 --> 00:26:43,510 Well, it's about time. 168 00:26:44,190 --> 00:26:46,810 Why the hell am I sitting here? drink like I don't have enough? 169 00:26:48,290 --> 00:26:51,350 I'm offended that you came here with your fly open. 170 00:26:52,170 --> 00:26:53,530 So what? So I'm being honest. 171 00:26:53,930 --> 00:26:57,490 I mean, I can't help it if it's obvious you know. I let it all hang out. 172 00:26:58,930 --> 00:27:00,250 Of course yes. 173 00:27:00,990 --> 00:27:02,730 Oh, come here. Come here. 174 00:27:03,290 --> 00:27:04,650 I'd like to make you laugh. 175 00:27:06,550 --> 00:27:10,450 Oh darling baby you know I can't help it that's if you just don't like my style, but 176 00:27:10,450 --> 00:27:11,450 you know. 177 00:27:13,409 --> 00:27:17,790 There's no one in this, no one a world that turns me on, as it does you. 178 00:27:42,330 --> 00:27:43,330 Yes sir. 179 00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:22,880 Julie, baby. 180 00:28:24,300 --> 00:28:26,080 My child. 181 00:28:31,540 --> 00:28:35,040 Nobody in this world is like me Julie. 182 00:28:37,540 --> 00:28:39,340 Let's go to the bedroom. Come on then. 183 00:29:11,340 --> 00:29:12,800 Oh, I love judging. 184 00:30:22,030 --> 00:30:23,590 Thank you. 185 00:33:39,050 --> 00:33:43,170 I've never made a movie about lesbians although this topic has always been 186 00:33:43,170 --> 00:33:44,170 charmed me. 187 00:33:45,390 --> 00:33:51,370 It seemed to me that the quality their love was different, deeper, more 188 00:33:51,370 --> 00:33:52,370 erotic. 189 00:33:53,170 --> 00:33:59,490 The secret of a woman's love for woman, her depth, path and 190 00:33:59,490 --> 00:34:04,690 its realization was the facets of humanity a state I could hardly imagine. 191 00:34:06,250 --> 00:34:10,330 Still a mystery in this private world stimulated me. 192 00:34:11,290 --> 00:34:15,389 Rarely had any sexual manifestations. it turned out to be so exciting. 193 00:36:09,610 --> 00:36:10,610 What's the matter, Stephanie? 194 00:36:14,190 --> 00:36:16,270 At least you could have called. 195 00:36:16,610 --> 00:36:21,610 I can understand a man playing games like this, but a woman shouldn't be like this 196 00:36:21,610 --> 00:36:22,610 insidious. 197 00:36:26,530 --> 00:36:28,290 What's it called? I don't understand. 198 00:36:30,510 --> 00:36:33,410 Oh, you made dinner. Stephanie, I I'm sorry. 199 00:36:33,610 --> 00:36:34,610 Indeed, I am. 200 00:36:34,830 --> 00:36:37,150 I forgot. Please forgive me. 201 00:36:37,500 --> 00:36:39,620 Why not? For letting me down like this. 202 00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:42,120 Are you out for dinner? 203 00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:44,580 Yes, with Dee Dee and James Heath. 204 00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:46,400 Would you like a cocktail? 205 00:36:47,640 --> 00:36:48,680 No, not now. 206 00:36:49,300 --> 00:36:50,300 I'm tired. 207 00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:53,140 I think I'll take a shower and go bed. 208 00:37:13,740 --> 00:37:16,220 I think my expectations were justified. 209 00:37:17,360 --> 00:37:23,220 James was very nice and I wanted him come over, but he refused. 210 00:37:26,720 --> 00:37:28,620 Now I'm feeling a little upset. 211 00:37:31,240 --> 00:37:37,460 So I'll take a shower and go bed. 212 00:38:09,130 --> 00:38:10,470 I have a drink for you 213 00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:51,500 Lynn, I love your breasts. 214 00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:55,640 How your nipples come alive when I touch them. 215 00:38:57,320 --> 00:38:59,260 I can take the edge off for you. 216 00:39:03,580 --> 00:39:05,320 I can make you relax. 217 00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:09,080 Will you let me try? 218 00:41:28,940 --> 00:41:31,440 And again I looked at this familiar stranger. 219 00:41:33,700 --> 00:41:39,820 My mind is burning with images film with the fire of its flesh. 220 00:42:00,490 --> 00:42:03,290 I wanted my body to burn in this fire. 221 00:42:04,410 --> 00:42:09,370 I wanted those lips and tongues to part fire to scorch my flesh. 222 00:42:10,350 --> 00:42:13,990 I wanted to be burned in the oven their secret sex. 223 00:42:34,990 --> 00:42:35,990 He's inside. 224 00:42:36,690 --> 00:42:37,690 Curse. 225 00:42:38,110 --> 00:42:41,270 This Andy, it's like having lunch with centipede. 226 00:42:41,570 --> 00:42:42,930 I think he's cute. 227 00:42:43,170 --> 00:42:46,370 Listen, when you're done with fairy tales, he is all yours. 228 00:42:46,710 --> 00:42:49,190 Please. Is Paul different? 229 00:42:50,010 --> 00:42:51,010 He's different. 230 00:42:51,090 --> 00:42:53,090 God, Paul is from another planet. 231 00:42:54,370 --> 00:42:58,410 Gentle, attentive. Andy never gets his way the mind is above the navel. 232 00:42:58,870 --> 00:43:00,130 Don't knock, baby. 233 00:43:01,510 --> 00:43:03,010 Hey, I have an idea. 234 00:43:03,600 --> 00:43:04,600 Are you busy on Sunday? 235 00:43:05,480 --> 00:43:06,520 Not particularly. 236 00:43:07,240 --> 00:43:09,340 How about staying overnight on Saturday? 237 00:43:09,620 --> 00:43:10,620 Why? How are you? 238 00:43:11,920 --> 00:43:12,920 Doesn't matter. 239 00:43:13,180 --> 00:43:14,380 I just had an idea. 240 00:43:17,900 --> 00:43:19,660 Fine. Surprise me. 241 00:43:26,640 --> 00:43:27,640 Carry on, Paul. 242 00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:31,740 And after that I... 243 00:43:32,140 --> 00:43:37,600 so carried away by the mannequin that I'm losing all contact with reality 244 00:43:37,600 --> 00:43:38,600 peace. 245 00:43:40,200 --> 00:43:46,860 When I feel that hard, smooth face, I become 246 00:43:46,860 --> 00:43:47,860 excited. 247 00:43:49,320 --> 00:43:55,960 I wanted to caress me, hold me, 248 00:43:56,060 --> 00:43:58,220 kiss me. 249 00:44:01,640 --> 00:44:06,920 And yet I know it's impossible. Is there thought about what was kissing or caressing you 250 00:44:06,920 --> 00:44:09,260 has a person, man or woman, ever worried you? 251 00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:13,880 This scares me. Does this turn you off? 252 00:44:14,420 --> 00:44:15,740 No, it scares me. 253 00:44:16,540 --> 00:44:20,860 I feel my chest tighten and my arms sweat 254 00:44:21,740 --> 00:44:23,640 I'm trying to fight it, but it's no use. 255 00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:28,300 That young lady you were walking with last night, you were uncomfortable because 256 00:44:28,300 --> 00:44:30,220 her? No, not at all. 257 00:44:31,600 --> 00:44:33,300 Not until the very end. 258 00:44:34,500 --> 00:44:39,320 And then I... I just said goodnight and left her standing there. 259 00:44:40,420 --> 00:44:43,780 I wonder what she must think? 260 00:44:44,140 --> 00:44:46,640 Do you intend to see her again? I want k. 261 00:44:47,480 --> 00:44:48,480 Very. 262 00:44:50,720 --> 00:44:57,200 She's the first girl I was attracted to since then... since then, uh... 263 00:45:00,460 --> 00:45:01,800 Do you think I should see her again? 264 00:45:02,280 --> 00:45:04,560 I think you should do what you want do. 265 00:45:05,280 --> 00:45:12,140 Now, returning to this fantasy again, I don't know why or what it does 266 00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:16,900 but some word or look from Polly in this the film excited me. 267 00:45:17,660 --> 00:45:18,880 And then it begins. 268 00:45:20,180 --> 00:45:22,760 Reality, how to explain this? 269 00:45:23,820 --> 00:45:30,260 Fragments of reality in slow motion and energizes my... darkest dreams 270 00:45:30,260 --> 00:45:34,620 and then my fantasy comes to life. 271 00:47:05,680 --> 00:47:06,680 Thank you. 272 00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:39,000 Hm. 273 00:49:15,150 --> 00:49:16,150 Mm-hmm. 274 00:51:33,610 --> 00:51:34,610 Oh yes. 275 00:52:36,140 --> 00:52:38,520 And when I came out of it, I was sick. 276 00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:40,920 Physically ill. 277 00:52:41,920 --> 00:52:42,940 And I got scared. 278 00:52:44,560 --> 00:52:46,220 It all felt so real. 279 00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:50,120 And lately it's getting worse. 280 00:52:51,220 --> 00:52:53,620 Because we are approaching a nerve. 281 00:52:54,760 --> 00:52:59,380 Therapy is not a rose garden, Paul. His blood, sweat and damn hard work. 282 00:53:00,220 --> 00:53:01,920 Just remember these keys. 283 00:53:02,440 --> 00:53:03,520 We will find them. 284 00:53:04,690 --> 00:53:05,690 Okay, Paul. 285 00:53:06,770 --> 00:53:08,390 We'll take it from here on Friday. 286 00:53:09,470 --> 00:53:10,470 At the same time. 287 00:53:11,530 --> 00:53:12,530 At the same time. 288 00:53:16,990 --> 00:53:17,990 Hello. 289 00:53:18,430 --> 00:53:22,410 Hello. Are you interested in my plans? this Sunday? 290 00:53:23,130 --> 00:53:26,490 Charmed. Spend the day with you. Maybe are you on time? 291 00:53:26,770 --> 00:53:28,130 You just caught me available. 292 00:53:28,790 --> 00:53:29,790 I'm glad. 293 00:53:29,930 --> 00:53:30,930 I'll call you. 294 00:55:53,720 --> 00:55:54,720 Hey, great. 295 00:55:56,100 --> 00:56:00,160 Once upon a time there was a man from St. Paul who claimed he only had one ball. 296 00:56:00,560 --> 00:56:04,460 Although the son of a bitch brought it down his pants... and discovered that he didn't have any 297 00:56:04,460 --> 00:56:05,460 everything. Shit. 298 00:56:05,860 --> 00:56:07,400 But I thought I finally had you. 299 00:56:09,020 --> 00:56:10,020 Uh, where's the princess? 300 00:56:10,400 --> 00:56:11,400 Outside. 301 00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:12,439 What does "go out" mean? 302 00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:13,600 I wish she would stay away. 303 00:56:14,780 --> 00:56:18,480 We had to go out. I mean, did did she leave any message? I even 304 00:56:18,480 --> 00:56:19,480 brought my camera. 305 00:56:28,930 --> 00:56:29,930 Read this. 306 00:56:31,690 --> 00:56:34,310 Dear Joyce, find an early date with Paul. 307 00:56:34,650 --> 00:56:36,630 Please wait. Prepare a surprise for you Julie. 308 00:56:37,970 --> 00:56:38,970 What's the surprise? 309 00:56:39,590 --> 00:56:40,670 I think yes. 310 00:56:42,510 --> 00:56:43,510 I don't understand this. 311 00:56:44,010 --> 00:56:46,790 I mean, it's not like her. If she wanted to break up a date is all she needs to do 312 00:56:46,790 --> 00:56:47,689 this is call me. 313 00:56:47,690 --> 00:56:50,410 I know it's not like her, but she knows what is she doing. 314 00:56:50,810 --> 00:56:51,810 Would you like a drink? 315 00:56:54,450 --> 00:56:55,450 Yeah. 316 00:56:56,230 --> 00:56:57,230 I'll have a drink. 317 00:57:11,850 --> 00:57:12,850 Thank you, Jess. 318 00:57:14,330 --> 00:57:17,710 You know, you are a very beautiful girl. 319 00:57:19,270 --> 00:57:21,790 If you could get rid of that psychiatrist of yours, maybe I'll give you a screen test. 320 00:57:22,110 --> 00:57:24,630 Yes, with Horny Harry on Pubic. Production. 321 00:57:25,090 --> 00:57:26,450 No, thanks. No, no, it's legal. 322 00:57:27,530 --> 00:57:30,090 I have a camera. Sit down. Let me get a few photos. 323 00:57:31,070 --> 00:57:32,770 All they have to do is look beautiful. 324 00:57:36,790 --> 00:57:38,890 Everything is fine. That's it. 325 00:57:39,710 --> 00:57:41,090 Wait a second. Let me just... 326 00:57:41,470 --> 00:57:42,470 Get it away from you. 327 00:57:42,990 --> 00:57:44,290 Why did I do this? 328 00:57:45,550 --> 00:57:48,590 I'm crazier than you. Come on, right on the ball. Right on the ball. 329 00:57:48,710 --> 00:57:49,710 Shh. 330 00:57:49,990 --> 00:57:50,990 I'm concentrating. 331 00:57:51,390 --> 00:57:52,730 Is that what you call it? 332 00:57:54,790 --> 00:57:56,770 My creativity is reaching its peak. 333 00:57:57,790 --> 00:58:00,030 I feel it too. 334 00:58:11,790 --> 00:58:12,790 Everything is fine. 335 00:58:15,470 --> 00:58:16,470 That's it. 336 00:58:18,670 --> 00:58:24,550 Come on, put your hands up. I want you should be free, free to express your opinion 337 00:58:24,550 --> 00:58:25,550 yourself. Drop them. 338 00:58:28,290 --> 00:58:29,290 Wait a minute. 339 00:58:30,310 --> 00:58:31,510 Oh, you're Aphrodite. 340 00:58:33,910 --> 00:58:34,910 Hi Troy. 341 00:58:35,530 --> 00:58:36,530 You're crazy. 342 00:58:36,870 --> 00:58:37,870 Oh, you are Venus. 343 00:58:52,940 --> 00:58:53,940 Bye bye. 344 01:02:36,490 --> 01:02:41,210 We often went to the park and I liked it this. Daisy days, I called them. Sweet and 345 01:02:41,210 --> 01:02:45,930 happy. Paul always liked to finish ride in a carriage and always with the same 346 01:02:45,930 --> 01:02:46,930 driver. 347 01:02:47,130 --> 01:02:51,190 Sandra was an old friend of Paul's the model he used to take photographs. 348 01:02:51,650 --> 01:02:55,450 She was beautiful and Paul seemed more which is a bit attractive. 349 01:02:56,170 --> 01:02:57,190 Why not? 350 01:02:57,430 --> 01:03:00,350 She made sex easy and natural grace. 351 01:03:01,070 --> 01:03:05,070 More than once I felt that Paul was drawn to her. and I had to fight my jealousy. 352 01:03:05,720 --> 01:03:10,440 But then we will calm down, and Paul would laugh, and I would laugh, and 353 01:03:10,440 --> 01:03:12,240 the world would turn into a daisy again. 354 01:03:47,470 --> 01:03:48,470 I won't bite. 355 01:03:48,690 --> 01:03:50,130 At least not yet. 356 01:03:53,010 --> 01:03:55,590 I really can't stay, Julie. Of course you can. 357 01:03:56,950 --> 01:03:59,150 We're all alone and we're fine. world. 358 01:03:59,910 --> 01:04:02,650 Oh Paul, I like you so much. 359 01:04:04,010 --> 01:04:05,670 I could eat a whole apple pie. 360 01:04:22,570 --> 01:04:23,570 Something's wrong. 361 01:04:25,750 --> 01:04:26,810 Damn it! 362 01:04:28,810 --> 01:04:30,530 I'm wrong, can't you see it? 363 01:04:31,090 --> 01:04:32,090 Are you stupid? 364 01:04:34,590 --> 01:04:35,590 I'm wrong. 365 01:04:59,980 --> 01:05:00,980 Andy. 366 01:05:03,380 --> 01:05:04,380 Andy. 367 01:05:06,860 --> 01:05:09,000 Andy. Andy. 368 01:05:09,600 --> 01:05:15,140 What the hell are you doing here? 369 01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:19,660 Where's Joyce? 370 01:05:21,040 --> 01:05:22,600 Oh, she's gone. 371 01:05:24,040 --> 01:05:26,480 Why are you still here? 372 01:05:33,840 --> 01:05:34,840 We had a date, remember? 373 01:05:35,000 --> 01:05:36,320 Didn't Joyce tell you I'm not at home? 374 01:05:38,240 --> 01:05:39,098 Oh yes. 375 01:05:39,100 --> 01:05:40,860 With that weirdo Paul. 376 01:05:42,400 --> 01:05:45,380 You'll die in a minute. Why didn't you leave? 377 01:05:48,140 --> 01:05:49,140 Because I was angry. 378 01:05:49,520 --> 01:05:50,780 Because you supported me. 379 01:05:51,380 --> 01:05:54,100 And you make me a fool and I don't want that. 380 01:05:54,600 --> 01:05:56,080 Fresh air will help. 381 01:05:57,780 --> 01:05:58,780 Get out! 382 01:05:59,000 --> 01:06:03,140 Oh shut up. I mean... What's the rush? Are you expecting me to come back, you bastard? 383 01:06:15,340 --> 01:06:16,340 Get out. 384 01:06:17,960 --> 01:06:19,440 What's between you and this idiot? 385 01:06:21,340 --> 01:06:22,440 I mean, he's weird. 386 01:06:22,960 --> 01:06:23,960 He's quirky. 387 01:06:24,920 --> 01:06:26,580 I know I worked with him on two films. 388 01:06:28,460 --> 01:06:32,600 I caught him in the dressing room while he was performing mascara runs down his face. He 389 01:06:32,600 --> 01:06:33,359 cried. 390 01:06:33,360 --> 01:06:35,480 Do I need to call the doorman to pick you up? came out? 391 01:06:36,460 --> 01:06:37,460 Everything is fine. 392 01:06:38,860 --> 01:06:40,100 I'm coming. Everything is fine. 393 01:06:41,060 --> 01:06:42,620 You know that this whole damn world crazy? 394 01:06:44,000 --> 01:06:45,000 You. 395 01:06:45,760 --> 01:06:46,760 And I. 396 01:06:47,040 --> 01:06:48,040 Joyce. 397 01:06:48,460 --> 01:06:49,460 All. 398 01:06:51,020 --> 01:06:53,800 But baby, let me tell you one thing. 399 01:06:55,020 --> 01:06:56,020 This Paul... 400 01:06:57,740 --> 01:06:58,740 stands out. 401 01:06:59,740 --> 01:07:02,700 Even in the midst of this. 402 01:07:56,780 --> 01:07:58,600 The image of Sandra did not go away. 403 01:07:59,340 --> 01:08:01,820 Her signals were loud and clear. 404 01:08:02,660 --> 01:08:07,000 Look, smile, movements. 405 01:08:07,780 --> 01:08:10,460 So thoughtful, so knowledgeable. 406 01:08:11,660 --> 01:08:14,340 She turned on the switch and she knew this. 407 01:08:15,020 --> 01:08:16,220 I wanted her. 408 01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:19,160 Besides understanding, I wanted her. 409 01:08:20,080 --> 01:08:23,720 I wanted to be pulled into the well her slender hips. 410 01:08:24,569 --> 01:08:28,550 So that my gender is strong, sinewy body. 411 01:08:29,890 --> 01:08:33,090 Now. I wanted her now. 412 01:08:34,649 --> 01:08:35,649 Sandra. 413 01:10:36,480 --> 01:10:37,480 Thank you. 414 01:11:35,630 --> 01:11:36,630 It's so good. 415 01:11:36,730 --> 01:11:37,830 It's so good. 416 01:12:09,570 --> 01:12:10,650 Oh God. 417 01:14:28,199 --> 01:14:29,960 Julie, baby, what is this? 418 01:14:31,200 --> 01:14:32,720 Go ahead, tell Joycey. 419 01:14:35,340 --> 01:14:37,920 Oh Joyce, I don't know what to do. 420 01:14:39,420 --> 01:14:42,800 I just don't know what to do. This Gender? 421 01:14:43,060 --> 01:14:44,820 Doesn't he feel the same? 422 01:14:45,560 --> 01:14:47,260 That's it. He does. 423 01:14:47,580 --> 01:14:49,860 I know he does it. And I love him. 424 01:14:51,080 --> 01:14:52,440 Nothing seems to happen. 425 01:14:54,360 --> 01:14:55,580 Another night... 426 01:14:56,750 --> 01:15:00,150 I rushed at him and he turned away I felt like I was some kind of monster. 427 01:15:01,850 --> 01:15:03,830 He literally ran away from me. 428 01:15:06,050 --> 01:15:09,070 Then Andy hinted at all sorts of terrible things. things about Paul. 429 01:15:09,390 --> 01:15:10,390 Do you mean he's gay? 430 01:15:12,070 --> 01:15:13,070 No. 431 01:15:13,930 --> 01:15:16,370 Bizarre, strange things, things I couldn't even understand. 432 01:15:18,450 --> 01:15:20,290 Maybe Andy is lying, I don't know. 433 01:15:20,810 --> 01:15:25,110 Did you know the risk when you started? see him. I just don't know. 434 01:15:25,960 --> 01:15:28,820 I don't know what his problem is or what there is a risk. 435 01:15:29,700 --> 01:15:33,240 If I had known, perhaps I could have helped him. That's a doctor's job, baby. 436 01:15:33,500 --> 01:15:34,500 Give it time. 437 01:15:35,000 --> 01:15:39,840 I think you're right. Look, it's almost five o'clock. Go home. I'll finish 438 01:15:39,840 --> 01:15:42,500 printing. Oh no, Joyce. 439 01:15:43,000 --> 01:15:44,340 Thanks, but I'm almost done. 440 01:15:47,120 --> 01:15:48,180 I'm fine, really. 441 01:15:49,340 --> 01:15:52,860 Well call me if you feel the blues or I want to be bombed. I will. 442 01:15:53,160 --> 01:15:54,740 Promise? I promise. 443 01:19:30,570 --> 01:19:32,910 I've never had anything like this in me. 444 01:19:33,150 --> 01:19:35,130 But what kind of pleasure will you get? 445 01:19:36,910 --> 01:19:39,410 Feeling your body. 446 01:19:39,630 --> 01:19:43,710 Our chests touch. Your hard nipples touching mine. 447 01:19:43,930 --> 01:19:46,550 The satisfaction of giving pleasure. 448 01:24:28,270 --> 01:24:31,030 For some unknown reason the film is now I was depressed. 449 01:24:31,830 --> 01:24:33,590 I felt terribly alone. 450 01:24:34,610 --> 01:24:37,390 I tried to leave but I couldn't shake it. 451 01:24:52,350 --> 01:24:54,670 My thoughts were about Julie. 452 01:24:55,690 --> 01:25:00,910 I was overcome by the need to see her, get lost in the warmth and 453 01:25:00,910 --> 01:25:02,090 the tenderness of her love. 454 01:25:03,490 --> 01:25:09,310 But I couldn't bring myself to call her hurt her again. 455 01:25:12,150 --> 01:25:14,730 My need for Julie tormented me. 456 01:25:15,390 --> 01:25:18,730 It seemed to go deep into my soul. 457 01:25:37,420 --> 01:25:43,020 I felt its pulsation of life, warmth, even the smell of perfume. 458 01:25:44,120 --> 01:25:45,780 Am I really angry? 459 01:25:46,820 --> 01:25:48,560 Look me in the eyes, Paul. 460 01:25:49,680 --> 01:25:52,440 See my love, my soul. 461 01:25:53,960 --> 01:25:58,320 I felt her breath, I held her softness. 462 01:25:59,840 --> 01:26:02,740 Paul, dear Paul, know that it is me. 463 01:26:03,700 --> 01:26:05,200 Alive, loving. 464 01:26:06,260 --> 01:26:07,260 Food. 465 01:26:08,340 --> 01:26:10,460 Oh please be real. 466 01:26:11,420 --> 01:26:13,800 Oh God, please be real. 467 01:27:03,400 --> 01:27:09,040 My God. 468 01:28:06,060 --> 01:28:07,060 Thank you. 469 01:30:12,970 --> 01:30:17,210 Last time I saw Paul and Julie were on one of my random walks in the park. 470 01:30:18,450 --> 01:30:23,570 We fed the squirrels nuts, and looking at them I felt pretty 471 01:30:23,570 --> 01:30:28,910 satisfied. Although, to be honest, I was I'm angry at the son of a bitch for taking 472 01:30:28,910 --> 01:30:31,230 the best secretary I've ever had. 473 01:30:33,010 --> 01:30:39,950 As for me, well, as a good teacher learns from his student, therefore good 474 01:30:39,950 --> 01:30:41,370 learns from his patient. 475 01:30:42,440 --> 01:30:46,160 And for what I learned from Paul, I be forever grateful.